My day was ruined so early in the morning. I should probably make this post in Tagalog, just in case, no?
Hindi naman ako mapag inarteng tao pero kapag trabaho ko na ang nakukwestyon, pinepersonal ko yun. I really take it personally, kasi naman hindi ko naman talaga linya tong trabaho nato. To be honest, di ko type. Naipit na ako dito because ganun naman dito sa Dubai. I’m not perfect and I’m not the one to ask about statistics dahil I’m very forgetful. Especially sa mga topics na di ko naman gusto. I am totally useless if I’m not in front of my laptop. I don’t remember numbers, data … whatever.
It started with a phone call na hindi ko masagot ang tanong. Then somebody talked to me in accusatory tone implying that I do not know what I am doing. What’s with today?! *sigh*
It actually made me realize that I’m not at all happy where my career is going. Don’t get me wrong … I love the company I am in. I get some perks and it gives me the money and opportunity to live in this very fast paced, multi cultural country. I just feel that I am not where I am supposed to be. You see, my work is totally unrelated to my degree. I took up Bachelors in Tourism because I don’t like Math. LOL! Yes, that was my main reason why I took this course … and because I love to travel. I have been dreaming of going places since I was a kid.
I’ve always been adventurous, so active. But when I came here, things changed. I became more serious. I became tamed (oo, people … malumanay na ako ng lagay na yan). I was talking to my college friend, Joy, who is in Norway right now competing in a chess tournament. Akalain mong nagche chess ang bakla! I told her I’m jealous of all her travels. Buti pa sya, natupad kahit papano ang mga pangarap na mamayagpag at rumampa. She told me, “Continue with your blog. Eventually you’ll find more sponsors and maybe get to travel often”.
Thanks sa suporta, my friend!
I felt relief after that conversation because you know what? I realized that through this blog I still get to do stuff that is in line with what I should be doing in the first place. I just need to find my voice once again. Re-ignite the passion, kumbaga.
Anyway, there are days that I just want to quit working and start running after my dreams but you know what, it’s a scary thought! Going out of your comfort zone and doing what you really love vs just working to survive.
So sorry if this post is confusing for most…I’m rambling, I know. I just needed to write this down. I need to read this again at some point. Something to remind me that I shouldn’t stay where I am because this is not where I want to be.
Anyway … moving on.