It has been more than a year since I wrote here the reasons why I breastfeed. As a new mommy, I take pride in the fact that I was able to exclusively breastfeed my child for the first six months of her life. This is quite a feat. Breastfeeding is not for the faint-hearted.
Fast forward to now, 20 months since I had Blake. 20 months and still breastfeeding. I just want to stop. I had selfish reasons for breastfeeding and I also now have selfish reasons to quit.
- I’m not losing all the weight. Yeah I did lose the baby weight but my usual overweight self is stuck. In fact, I am gaining those pounds as if I’m pregnant again. No, I am not pregnant again.
- I’m tired. Just tired. Working during the day and then coming home to a very active (sometimes cranky) toddler is exhausting.
- I’m feeling different kinds of pain… back pain, muscle pain, pain in the neck (literally) … I feel so old!
- I want to do things like go (window) shopping for a longer time … not having to worry that I have a child who likes to feed at night directly from the source.
- I want my nipple left alone! There, I said it. It’s really painful and sore… after 20 months of sucking, I tell you its no longer fun.
The way she looks at me when she feeds.
The way we communicate like we have our own language. I love the bond that we have…
And I love it especially when she tries to convince everyone that this is the good stuff!
So, yeah… we probably won’t be quitting anytime soon.